One Step Forward, Two Steps Back.

7thstranger — Thu, 12 Feb 2009 15:46:01 +0000

Couldn’t it get any harder?

After going through stress each day and trying your best to be better, you see some light glowing that things are improving… then suddenly, bang! You say the wrong word, you act the wrong way, and you are back to square one… or worse, back to nothing… once again!

This is so tiring!This is getting so frustrating!

When will it actually get better… for real?!

Posted in My Life, Reflections Tagged: life

Hoping

7thstranger — Tue, 13 Jan 2009 16:36:36 +0000

I fervently pray that everything in my life right now would properly be in order this year.

Posted in My Life, Random Thoughts Tagged: prayer

Sacred Space

7thstranger — Tue, 11 Nov 2008 18:02:08 +0000

A friend sent me this link – Sacred Space – something that can help us in our daily prayer and reflection. I tried it earlier tonight. It is indeed a good source of reflection, and an inspiration to help in our daily prayer. I often have trouble with my daily prayer time. I prefer to pray before I go to sleep. However, more often than not, I don’t get to finish my prayer and wake up the next morning realizing I slept through my prayer time once again.

With Sacred Space, I was able to spend a few minutes in prayer in front of my computer, where I spend most of my waking hours. If only I could learn to keep this into my routine, I think it will be a better practice for me.

Posted in Spiritual Guide Tagged: prayer guide, reflection, sacred space

Is It So Hard to Simplify?

7thstranger — Thu, 25 Sep 2008 06:27:38 +0000

Often times, it is ourselves who complicate things, where a resolution to a conflict is actually so simple. And more often that not, pride is a factor.

Posted in Random Thoughts, Reflections Tagged: musings

Rantings and Ramblings

7thstranger — Wed, 24 Sep 2008 17:55:03 +0000

When I get mad, I am literally consumed by the hate and anger I feel inside… or rather I should say that my hate and anger consumes me. And it takes awhile (a really long while) for me to cool down.

I wonder why some people can get mad and after only a few minutes, they are calm and collected again… and they don’t bring along any grudges with them.

What is it that brings much hate and anger to a person? What does it take to let go? Does pride have something to do with it?

I cannot afford to keep on being this way. I don’t think I’ll live long enough if I do.

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Am I seeking something that is nonexistent? Am I hoping for something impossible? Am I believing in a fairytale?

I know if there is one thing constant in this world, it is change. But has change really taken away a lot of the good stuff and the sweet nothings?

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Posted in My Life, Random Thoughts Tagged: Random Thoughts

Patience, Persistence and Faith

7thstranger — Sun, 07 Sep 2008 19:07:49 +0000

“Pray always and give thanks as if we have just been handed our heart’s desire.”

I read this from an email sent by an old acquaintance. And I know I lack the three things related to this: patience, persistence and faith.

First of all, I am not a patient person. Sometimes I wonder what makes a person patient? Upbringing? Experience? Learnings?

As my husband pointed out in a movie we were watching one time (Evan Almighty), Morgan Freeman (portraying God) was talking to Evan’s wife and said to her something to this effect- “If you prayed for patience, do you think God will give you patience or the opportunity to be patient?”

That made me think. I have been praying for help to become a more patient person (especially towards my family), and until now I am nowhere near the patience I picture myself to be. And if indeed He has been giving me opportunities to be patient, instead of just granting me the virtue of patience, I wonder how do I learn to be patient? It takes every ounce of self control I can manage to try to be patient especially when I feel stressed out. And probably more often than not, I still find myself bursting in anger or irritation.

Persistence. I guess without patience, I ask myself how can I also be persistent? How can one persist if he does not have the patience to wait for the results to come?

For the past weeks that I have felt distant and empty during my prayertime, I ended up now missing a lot of it instead of fervently pursuing my prayertime despite that void feeling.

And because of these two (or the lack thereof), how can I say that my faith is full and whole when I have not been patient and persistent in my spiritual obligations and growth?

Can You See That Far?

7thstranger — Fri, 29 Aug 2008 18:29:29 +0000

Sometimes I wonder where my life is headed. I am still searching and confused. I know my priorities. I know my dreams. I know my goals. Yet how come I don’t know how to put all these together?

What Was I Thinking?

7thstranger — Fri, 08 Aug 2008 09:05:46 +0000

I have been amiss in a lot of things this week… prayertime, checking on my daughter’s school activities, exercise, and giving my body time to rest. Sometimes I feel there is not enough time, and so it drives me to finish in one sitting tasks that I’d like done. To the point of affecting my health, my responsibilities as a mom, and my prayertime. When in reality, those tasks can be slowly distributed throughout the week.

I wonder what makes me so. I feel restless when there’s something unfinished, especially if it’s something I really love doing.

I’ve tried making a schedule before, but after a few weeks, just got dumped. I really need to work on a routine to balance everything.

Reflections

7thstranger — Thu, 07 Aug 2008 06:02:28 +0000

I’ve decided to journal my reflections. Since I enjoy blogging anyway, I figured it would help me this way to do more frequent reflections. I hope that by doing so, and put in writing my reflections, it would help me find my way.